At last, a Porsche

After much procrastination, I signed a purchase agreement for a 2017 Porsche Macan, their small, highly rated, sporty SUV. In development, the Macan was code-named "Cajun" which stood for Cayenne Junior. Macan, I find by looking it up, is the Javanese word for tiger. The car is beautiful, a dark metallic blue exterior with a tan and black interior scheme. I recall how strange I felt when I bought a small, pretty, factory certified used Lexus ES 300 sedan those many years ago.  I was suffering from imposter syndrome at the time, not quite able to believe I had achieved a level of success to warrant owning that sweet little vehicle. How different I feel now. So many things have fallen into place to put me in a position to buy a bottom-of-the-line Porsche SUV at age 65 but I don't question the kindness of Fate any more. I just want to make my life count from here on out. I'm aware of my mortality every day and am in pretty good acceptance. My mission is to engage passionately with life, take care of myself, help others as much as possible whether in small ways or large ones, and see what happens.

Creative dream image

Just before awakening this morning I was dreaming Mary Lou and I were at a car dealership to sign papers. A young man was sitting with a salesman as we came in. The customer was having second thoughts and was reluctant to sign his papers. As we were waiting another young man came in carrying a very unusual guitar case. It was made of brown leather in the humorous (not realistic) form of an alligator. I was amused and intrigued. The youth with the case manipulated something and the alligator appeared to be expelling something as if it were coughing it up. Surprisingly, a large model railroad car emerged followed by a second one. Someone tossed one of the toy cars to me causing me to make an awkward catch.

Several connections occur to me. I had a Lionel train set as a boy. Pieces of it remained in the attic when I was disposing of Mom's possessions. I think the train set was sold by Susan Henderson. A second connection: I have a guitar case made by Gator. I took my Fender Stratocaster in it to Georgia last week. Obviously, I'm buying a new car, a 2017 Porsche Macan, that I was hesitant to purchase because of the expense. Is this just my brain combining several images randomly or is there meaning it the dream?